wings wouldn't help you

i was at the airport today, seeing i. off after having spent the weekend together.

i am not in love with him.

i feel sick about it.

i want nothing more.

the last time i was at the airport with this man, i was longing for another. and i left there to run straight into his arms.

today i felt the same longing but his arms are no longer open for me.

and i really can't tell you how terrible that feels.

i'm not sure how to get through this tonight.