solitaire.

i'm in such a funny mood today.

everything's up in the air and i don't like it much. except part of me really does like it a lot. and i can't decide which part is wiser?

i was supposed to go to d & c's tonight for drinks and boardgames or something... i decided very last minute that i did not really feel up to it. i feel like doing something. unfortunately, i don't really do things with others. i'm a solitary kind of girl that way. people are great for lots of things... activities are not really one of them. unless they're quite structured. like... a class of some sort.

sometimes i find it really depressing that the only thing it seems people my age do, socially, is drink. it seems like there should be so much more going on in our lives at this stage? i'm so bored and so restless. and i know it's true that only boring people get bored, etc. i'm working on that.

i started reading this book a couple of weeks ago, 'the creative habit', by twyla tharp. it's really interesting. she takes quite a militant approach to developing and nurturing creativity. i have not picked it up for a while and i think i will do so again tonight. and maybe watch my last episode of gossip girl. i also kind of feel like baking something but i'm not sure what i could make? maybe muffins!

tomorrow i have therapy pretty early, and then yoga with sarah. i am looking forward to both.

that's the end!