a and b but not c

ooooook.

today is a 'b' day. it's not my fault, one of my favourite websites posted a 'london design guide' today and of course my thoughts turned to him. i also cleaned my apartment today which means i would have of course thought of him again. not to imply that it wasn't constant...

because it was.

i don't know why! some days are better than others.

i've even contemplated e-mailing him the link so that he could check it out himself, in case there is anything he might be interested in? but there probably wouldn't be, and to be honest i'm not completely positive that this is the real reason i thought of sending it, and since i know he'd probably not respond it i decided against it. today. i might send it tomorrow, though.

i'm kind of proud of myself for our last communication. "i'm sad that you're leaving" = leaps and bounds of bravery on my part. sad that it went ignored but at least it was said. laid to rest. put to bed. now i'm lying in it. oh shit, that's not right...

annnyway.

there's this girl at work. we're friends, i guess. she's a nice girl? sort of nice. our values are very different. there's more to her than what i will say here, of course, but for the sake of explaining why we are different: she is very shortsighted. she's jealous and spiteful and holds a grudge. i don't understand this kind of thinking. well -- i understand it, but i don't see a point to it, i suppose.

she makes me a little bit nervous because she's started copying me. a lot. i don't really like it very much. it wasn't so bad until she also started growing out her bangs. and pinning them to the side with bobby pins. now it's more personal.

one day she'll turn on me and i hate the idea of that.

one more work story and then i think i will go to bed. our charity for 2009 is the humane society. that's fine, i like animals a lot. i wanted the foodbank, but the humane society is good. so there is a bulletin board in the staffroom for employees to post pictures of their pets, and the cutest one will get to be the 'poster pet' for our campaign this year. i thought, hey, no fair. i don't have a pet, and i don't want to be discriminated against! i too want to take part in this fun activity.

so i found this pet:

and so i named him peter and put him on the bulletin board. he's in amongst the cats and puppies and maybe hamsters.

peter is a great pet. he's cute and so good at jumping over fire. he can probably talk but i have never really tried speaking with him. someday.

i wonder if people will laugh or just think i am insane. probably the latter. that's ok, though.

ok, goodnight!