body, cage, etc.

holy shit this is terrible. i think i might die.

i might literally die.

i don't think it's possible to communicate the desperation/despair/destruction/just kill me that i feel right now. i don't think i'm capable. not that i can't express it... more that i don't write well enough; my depiction would pale in comparison to what this actually feels like.

because it feels like i'm dying, that's about as close as i can come to accurately describe what it is like to exist in this body at this moment. but sadly, i'm not.

i need to write but i can't. it's too uncomfortable to be distracted.

and there's something in my throat.