the sweeping insensitivity [ of this still life. ]

yeah well. the rain's here.

don't get me wrong, i'm a good 75% chuffed over this ... but it does get old fast as i remember from last year. a much larger part of me would be more pleased if it rained a lot less and just got colder like it has been.

as much as i like not to, i am suddenly dreading this season. i'm not sure why. i can feel the sadness creeping in, and i am noting now that it has been missing for a while. anger, yes, frustration, absolutely, but sadness -- not so much. i'm not sure how to react? i tried yesterday to put on some happy music and override it but. i don't know. more on this later but

i can't let it envelope me.

i went here today and bought one of these kittens for my friend kim in toronto. when i moved into my apartment she sent me a _ton of stuff for it and i can't afford to get her anything that would match in terms of value but i hope she likes her new little friend. about a year ago she took in a stray but was too allergic to keep him. it was sad. her new kitten will be gray with blue eyes. cute!! i'll take a picture tomorrow so i can post it here.

i am so in love with that shop. the girl who owns it is almost always in there, and she makes a lot of the stuff on her own. for example -- kim's kitten is not born yet! she is being created as we speak. i really like that. she is being made just for kim -- i picked her colour and everything.

it's funny, i have been feeling all weekend like i would have something amazing to say here when i finally sat down to write, but i don't. oh well, maybe i'll come back to it later.